No more lingering

I appreciate
it’s a little awkward.
You want company
over there,
someone to wallow,
to commiserate,
to agree to the unfairness of it all.
I’m over here
with my cheery disposition
trying to ignore it.

Its not that life
is kinder to me,
or that my vision is blinded
by blue glass, butterflies and feathers
Its that I stopped
trying to be the most miserable person in the room.

The competition
to the bottom
became so boring.

It looks as though I’ve lost touch
with reality,
with being human,
with being kind,
with being angry and sad.

I haven't though,
it’s just that I don’t linger
anymore.
Lingering leads to a type of
malingering in life
which leads to
loneliness.

I appreciate
its a little strange
but come sit with me
in the sunshine
and leave the lingering
​to someone else
for 17 seconds